"But I hear with my heart
What she says with her eyes with
Good evening, Manuel or Manuel, por favor
Or The carriage, Manuel or Manuel, close the door"
OOC: I really don't think we can go back to the marvel game the way we left things. Not and have any kind of feel like we used to have. Since the world restart we've struggled and nothing for me as felt good like it used to. Mostly its the lack of participation in people's own characters. They don't seem to even try and connect to them in a game that is mostly about interpersonal relationships. If you don't know who your character is it's hard to interact with people in a real way.
This really hurts me a lot, losing this game. This was the game where I really got to stretch out and do and be things that I loved. In the last year I lost my dad, my favorite uncle, my home, my health, my game and my favorite characters. It's been a shitty year.
Part of the problem was I think people never quite got what was going on and they didn't ever have their characters really react to the level of change they went through. But then again none of them ever had anything they worked for in the previous game to loose. I had worked my ass off to get where I was. Some of it was exploitative of the system but most of it was long hours working with the GM to get stuff worked out the way it needed to be. Plus years of gaming to get things in place.
This new game we are playing they all seemed to be excited about but I could leave it and never think of it again. Plus I'm told I need to change my play style to cater to their inability to see anything going on. Now I have to explain to them what's going on. Like they are a bunch of damned little kids. Now grown ass men in their 20-40's
How do people who have been gaming for over 10 years still fall for every contrived or basic GM trick? Oh that's right, not paying attention or treating it like it's a real world.
I'm not a good player, but I follow along and I try and do my best. I find it hard to understand why people would do something like gaming that takes up so much of your time and not put some effort into it.
But I'm probably wrong. Sure the GM agrees with me but we are both bad players.
Oh and lets not forget that the other players don't like it when I rules argue cause they don't get that I argue for balance and so oppose their frivolous wants to make their character awesome that minute.
So if I want to play I have to play their game. Ok, fine. I'll do that but like I told them, I'm not building the world and I'm not making the decisions this go round. We'll see how that works out.
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