Grudges

I hold grudges, I didn't used to but I do now.  I am loathe to let go of things more so when people humiliate or over react to something I do.  Like I said, I didn't used to be this way but I taught very carefully and over a period of time to learn to both hate and to wish ill upon people.  This is old universe stuff that has what I think was accidentally carried over to this world.

This world it was simple, I didn't know that it would happen.  So when I tapped that security guy in the chest I didn't think I would break him that bad.  But then the guy in the motorcycle helmet showed up and I went peacefully.  After locking me in a cell they engaged what I assume was a standard mutant nullifier and shot me with an AK for some damn reason.  So when I find that guy I'm going to shove that helmet up his ass and those bullet down his gullet.  Fuck that guy.

Why am I so worked up about something that did me no permanent harm?  Let talk about that.

For the most of the 4 years I was a member of the Write academy we students where routinely used in a training exercise to train law enforcement to be willing to use violence I normal looking kids.  For just about any infraction we would be teleported to there facility and incapacitated.  Following by beatings for things as bad as aggressive eye blinking. This would last from hours to days at a time.  Going so far as to put us in gen pop of some of the meta human jails to lose us for a while.

Later on I would be part of the group to start to bring down the people who had done this but that was years after the damage had been done.

So now I'm distrustful of authority and do not submit well to those for whom I have no knowledge of.  The problem in a lot of this has always been that I seem to take other people's lessons to heart and they ignore them.  While the people around me shrug it off and laugh like it was no big deal I learn to hate their weakness a little more.  They will always be weak as long as they aren't able to see their own failings.

So yeah, grudges.  I has them.